Sunday, July 29, 2012
Decisions
I found that people make a decision about "what" they're going to do, and then they do it without thinking it's wrong. There is always a reason, though, that makes it right.
Working
I feel bad. I was doing my laundry, and for some reason it sounded like it'd hurt my dad. Not sure what all's going on. He's asleep! I know it wouldn't have worked. I just kept working.
Doing Things Others Do
I find people are constantly complaining to me that I do things they can't. It feels like a threat, though. It's sad and untrue.
I don't really understand some people.
I don't know why they're less than perfect. They can't let major issues go wrong and not know what something really is they've done. Some things seem like they need to be done. I don't want to be dissed after being tricked and having this feeling permanent, like that I'll never be good enough. I never did anything to garner that. Some people may be taught a lesson by that and overcome it, but I'll never figure out what I did wrong in certain places. It seems that everyone should have relationships with different people, if they want, but sometimes there is no reason other than for prestige or pleasure. That seems to be all some people've done.
Well, a lot of people might seem dangerous, but I suppose they dress up what they do. It seems like my approval is what people seek, but I don't want to let things go to far at my expense.
Well, a lot of people might seem dangerous, but I suppose they dress up what they do. It seems like my approval is what people seek, but I don't want to let things go to far at my expense.
I'm a farce.
It looks like lots of people were mad at me and framed me. It's too bad things don't go so well for everyone, but they are actually better off than other people in some ways. People seem to think I'm a farce. Things for me may be set how I don't like, and it's not my fault. Other people just pretty things up and want to submit|succumb to others on the inside. So, like, they hide their actions. That doesn't make sense. There are wonderful things in the world that are very real, as most people probably are aware of. I don't know that I myself wanted to submit|succumb to others. I might have certain thoughts on certain things of what I'd do. I don't think I'd have certain problems or issues, in the first place.
Put on a Farce
I don't believe in suffering to achieve an end, but I don't think I was pleased with myself as a baby. I think my parents, obviously, thought it would be cute to make me fat and not shaped like a human. I also looked tickled in a funny way. I would want a handle on that, but I don't want to be the one to succumb to putting on a farce. It shouldn't be like what my life is. So, as a baby, I completed things substantially by one point but probably earlier put on a farce.
Dressed Up & What's Expected Essentially
Things do need to be dressed up, so I have what that is expected essentially.
Something Else Going Around
Why would people question people in their privacy why they aren't like them but are expected to be a certain way ... when that person probably is like that, just you didn't happen to know this particular person.
Lying
I've never been wronged by other people in a way I can't handle. Why test me to death? Why act like that doesn't matter? Just trying to impress me and lie about me? Is that even possible?
So
People do things just for the experience but don't believe in experiences of thinking of those things. 8|
Being Bad, Then Being Elusive
Elusive.
So, I see in people that they are very bad, but then it's that you're bad to them when you're not, in any case. Like, they were bad, and then you see them just trying to make you feel like there's something wrong with you, when there could be and it could be helpful. I just know that's not what life's about.
So, I see in people that they are very bad, but then it's that you're bad to them when you're not, in any case. Like, they were bad, and then you see them just trying to make you feel like there's something wrong with you, when there could be and it could be helpful. I just know that's not what life's about.
Kids ... Family ...
There are certain things about my parents that I don't do to tickle them, but they are still impressed by me and what I do, maybe fake but caring. I've given up a lot in my life on this front, just to put on a display of something. It must be peaceful, my parents's getting along, living together, going out in the world. I never once whined nor felt the need to of my mom's connections she had and maybe had later with people in Chinese Indonesia. Well, Indonesia, the Chinese, maybe primarily.. I don't feel buttered up the wrong way when I see the connection of my dad's relatives, but I get upset when I can't have a relationship with a lot of them.
So, when I see others, I feel they are sorta sucking up to their parents if they are well-liked or well-known and in some cases to the extreme, which is, in ways, as it should be. Sometimes, it's the mom that takes on the kids, and, sometimes, it's the dad. That's rather unkind. They sometimes seem to be doing it for real. I can understand having a relationship, but doing it literally to hurt others makes no sense. I don't understand doing it just so someone can laugh at you and feel like they did it, too, which I don't overall. There are always selfish reasons for doing things, but I myself get over them, obviously, not sure at the core why others don't. It seems as though some of these kids think they can discipline the world to like their parents when what they want is to be the only one their parents like. Some people even only want to be surrounded by people who don't offer healthy competition, like that's what they're told to think and so with physical experiences of the thought. I know some people can be flirtatious, in ways I just described.
So, when I see others, I feel they are sorta sucking up to their parents if they are well-liked or well-known and in some cases to the extreme, which is, in ways, as it should be. Sometimes, it's the mom that takes on the kids, and, sometimes, it's the dad. That's rather unkind. They sometimes seem to be doing it for real. I can understand having a relationship, but doing it literally to hurt others makes no sense. I don't understand doing it just so someone can laugh at you and feel like they did it, too, which I don't overall. There are always selfish reasons for doing things, but I myself get over them, obviously, not sure at the core why others don't. It seems as though some of these kids think they can discipline the world to like their parents when what they want is to be the only one their parents like. Some people even only want to be surrounded by people who don't offer healthy competition, like that's what they're told to think and so with physical experiences of the thought. I know some people can be flirtatious, in ways I just described.
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